tml is science chem. ahh. cant seem to get anything into my head. after chem is a maths paper 1. omg. so much things haven revise. how how? and im still playing. haha. so little ppl online nowadays. from the usual 80+ to an all time low of 30+ today. sighh. everyone so hardworking unlike me still slacking. gonna fail all my papers. LOL. going orchard hotel to have dinner later. i want to get a new bag and something. time to save money. yesterday had a terrible headache. slept at 9+.
to someone:
sorry for not replying your msg. i slept early.wanted to go out to study in the afternoon but no one's free. guess i have to stay at home to study. so much distractions. sighh. going to blast the music loud loud. release all the things inside me. too much thoughts. as you know. researchers say that too much emotions kept within you is not good for your health. either you tell your friends or let it all out in one go. i guess i will choose the 2nd options. no one really knows about my thoughts. i wont say also. unless your a very very close friend. UNLESS. haha. the rest of your dont worry. its not depression or what. its just thoughts and feelings. i wont kill myself or what. there is this phrase:''if you are feeling hurt, increasing the pain in a physical way does not help you." this is very true, to me. what is life when even you torture yourself. just enjoy and live life to the fullest. no regrets or whatever. this is the most crucial year in my life. whether academically or physically or in relationships. i dont want to regret my choice. just give me time to think about what i want. i want to achieve a maximum or 10pts for my o's. many ppl will think that its impossible. as im restless and noisy in class, to them its impossible. but i will aim for that. there are extra incentives if i achieve it. physically, now every sat i got activities. must train hard for inter-sch swimming. i must beat the acs guy. in p6, he won me in the heats by 0.01 secs. and he was the last to get into the finals. if i had won him, i would have got into the finals. i wont be in queenstown anymore. but since im here, i decide to make the best year of my life before leaving the sch. even though in volleyball we have not won any medals, in swimming i have a chance of winning for the sch. all in all, i just want to exact my revenge on the acs guy. ACSians, beware! haha. i'll just try my best. dont worry. i wont let the ppl around me down. thanks for listening to me when i needed you most. aku cinta kamu. as for the person who let me down, i have 3 words for you. "im utterly disappointed". there is no way we will be together again. just forget me. honestly, i cannot get myself to forget you no matter how hard i try. but i will no divulge anything related to you also. looking forward to the future, not backwards to the past. history will never repeat itself. not to me, i guess. this friday is a holiday. even though next week still got exams, i plan to go watch MI3. anyone interested? maybe thursday then say. still have tuition on sunday. sighh. today blogged alot. stressed. i go study now. 