sighh. failed 3 subject. accounts F9, science E8, A maths F9!! argh. im going to die soon. someone save me. how i wished i had studied. the format for accounts is all the opposite of what i written, science was tough but i thought i could have done better if i had studied. a maths was easier compared to last year. due to not one but many careless mistakes, my marks were screwed. sighh. got no mood to do anything now. how i wish i can retake these papers. i know i cannot but i also know that i could have done better. no point brooding over it now. after a scolding from my parents then i realise thats its really time for me to buck up and study. going to chiong for chinese o' levels the week after next and then during the june holidays for what i lost to others in. must do TYS and exam papers. i must get what i want. i am willing to sacrifice everything. now that i know the most important thing at the moment is my studies. everything can wait till the end of november when my o'level is over. first i must achieve satisfactory result for my chinese. A1 or A2. play less games during the coming weeks and spend more time on studying and reading chinese newspapers. i dont believe i cannot get that. after chinese, i will do everthing i can to catch up in a maths, e maths and science as well as accounts. accounts got loads and i mean loads to catch up. must memorise all the formats and make sure i do revision and stuffs. i dont want to waste money hiring a tutor and waste time also. i want to study on my own. trust me. today had a really bad day in sch. was so depressed. fail 3 subjects. thanks for staying by my side and cheering me up. my history was okay but science was such a disappointment. i failed for the first time in my life and got a E8. what the hell. so disappointed. my physics mcq was okay but the paper was the killer. did so badly. god. and chem was vice versa. ahh!!! i want to scream out loudly. i want to go to somewhere to vent all my anger and frustration!! if i fail my english, then i will really die. i think i did fail!!! but miracle can happen and i hope it happens to me. i hope, i hope. if not then prepare for the worst. a catastrohy will occur.
